| hey every body im feeling like such a shitty mood and mad stuff just keeps happening to me and some one told me that it isnt my fault its the fault of my parents wrongs doins that i have to fuckin suffer in this life why does it have to be like that fuck man so much pain merizery and sorrow i feel towards my self and others but the people i should blame isnt me o should stop beatening up on my self and sobbing i have to try hard to changed the damn balance but it is hard but hopefully i aint as dumb as i look and ill get over it.shit i pray some miracle in my life can change all the dumb shit im doing and the dumb shit that i havnt committed and set it self a clear new course but life is a bitch u live in once die once and fuck ur self twice so do what that fuck u want to do and try to make use of it for the life u have been chosen and given makes use of u and fucks u over in the long wrong stop waittting and wasting time jump and leep and pray to god oh pray to god u can fly cause thats all our life is based on the mother fuckin possibility is i see light again tomorrow or this is gunna be my last so live life like its your last and you truely have used your time wise and not of useing it as a what if |
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| i pray that my constion may guide me through the way and show me the path in which my life it destined to follow and i shall lead myself in a path in which i am able to guide my way that i am able to lead my on life and make to ultiamte well right decsion cause right as of now i have mad all the the wrong ones and i hope that i can fix it i mean my court case with my godfather didnt work out i mean he didnt put the petiton in for me and i hope what ever he plans to do goes well and works for me cause i shed tears of dreams and hopes that yet come true and i hope they do come true soon i mean i finally see and realize i cant make it on my on i need gods help to so may he show me his light so i can be free and saved and put on the path i want to lead which is be a man that can change and for get who i am but be reborn and changed again i hope i get adopted soon cause thats all i want i mean if have to run till im 18 then so be it but i remember one thing if no one can help me i have to help myself first and i chose to be so much more than a street rat a street kid i want to be a succesful person that has accomplish so more cause i dont want to lead a path of what ifs but a path that leads me to glorify and be a better man cause be and gangsta isnt who i want to be even though its a great part of me i feel like im walkin in a shadow of darkness and no one cares because all they see is my "troubles no seems to see the greater part of me and its my sruggle" this is what makes me the evil peron i am and i want to change but i cant well i can but i need hope and a way out so i can be the person i want to be and lord i pray may you shine your light on me cause i want you to i have finally found out who i am and who i want to be so may you allow me to get my education and go back to school in your loving and forgiven naming i repent to you and may you help me amen. |
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| hey i just realized one of the most important things that has been bothering that i do not understand which is well one sunday at cll manny was speaking and she said something very important to me it was when she was speaking out load she told every one i was a gang memeber which i didnt appreciate but hey i live right the point is she said something like what is my devotion to god or something like that but i said i dunno then she said to me well anthony u knoe u cant have a relationship with god and its a half one cause its just not the way lyfe works and i knoe that so my struggle is it possible for me to be a gang member and still have a relationship with god even though i want to change but part of me likes bein blood so im drawn at a cross road but i cant seem to split myself int to two so what do i do????????? please help me please help me |
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| hey how is every one doin i mean i doin fine yeah i am being tossed from home to home but hey i live with it and i manage to survive i want you guys to pray for me if u see this its for well march 6 i arranged for my god father to put in a petition for me so i can be adopted and i can have a decent life and go back to school and not be able to have to be forced to take a GED cause thats gay im to fuckin smart for that but thats what it comes down too but please pray that i can be able to live with my god father so i can be place on the right track and never to be stared off again well i pray this myself in jesus name i pray amen.. |
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| hey whats up every one its ur boy angel back for some more loving i mean im doing well but i miss school and all my people that surport me but the person i love and miss the most cause she was always there for me JANICE F. love you gurl i really do and i hope u listen to what i wrote to u and it means something to you and my bday is comein up yall its FEB 18 ON SATURDAY SO SHOW ME SOME LOVE OK |
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